First Isn't Always Best

I received my first kiss from my first boyfriend and I remember it well. I also remember thinking, "I'm so not impressed. This is wet, gross and there is no spark. If this is what kissing is all about why do people do it?" Granted, I knew at the time that these things tend to take practice and so I figured we'd get better at it. The thing is, in 5 years we never did get better at it. It got to the point where I just didn't want to French kiss him because it was so unpleasant. Any time he tried to stick his tongue in my mouth I'd fight him and pull away. I didn't mind the closed mouth kissing but that's as far as I wanted to go.
Then I met someone else. He kissed me and my goodness, I finally figured out what I'd been missing for so long. Of course because of my ingrained, knee jerk response to kissing I messed up a wonderful experience. I hope I didn't put him off too much and that someday he will kiss me like that again. Just remembering it makes me smile and makes "Sarah" feel all warm and tingly.
ACuriousStudent ACuriousStudent
26-30, F
Sep 3, 2012