Perfect Kiss/ Weird Place

My first kiss was perfect! The guy who kissed me made me feel like I was in heaven! The place he kissed me just wasn't right.......I went to visit him in the hospital (mental part of it) He was in the hospital for trying to kill himself.....I was nervous and scared...but i leaned down to hug him and He kissed me on the lips! I kissed him back and It gave me a feeling I never felt before......I was so in love with him.....he didn't love me back of course..he was just wanting to have sex with me.....If I knew that back then I wouldn't have kept seeing him.....I feel like I wasted 8 months of my life over a guy who made me feel loved without actually loving me....and when he broke up with me he told me he was just using me to have sex with me....he said he found the girl he actually loved and I was just someone to sleep with......sometimes I wish It would have worked out between me and him.....then I realize I wouldn't have meet my current boyfriend. I believe we all have that one mistake before we find our real true love and I love him more than anything and he actually loves me back!! My ex made me feel loved but my bf now makes me feel loved and actually does love me! It was a great first kiss but just wasn't the right guy.
TiffanyMarie92 TiffanyMarie92
18-21, F
Jan 16, 2013