Lost Love, At Least I Have The Memories And Some Photos...

I met my first, and only love, when I was 10 years old. She loved me too, then I moved to another country with my family and we lost touch. Now 9 years later i found her on facebook we talked a little said about different things that happened after all this years but after a while she would go online and not talk to me or after I talked to her she would't show any interest in me or making  a conversation. So I stopped talking to her, I think that I'm bothering. I feel like I'm a stranger to her. This makes me sad, I was searching for her for over 4 years, I was searching her name on all popular social networks and now that I found her I wish that I never had found her so that I can remember her loving and caring about me...

TheCaptain1990 TheCaptain1990
18-21, M
9 Responses Feb 27, 2010

I think it's possible, but that's another thing. Do you plan on going on through with this or are you waiting for something to happen, or something else?

I never loved someone so much, I don't think that it is possible to really love someone without having any contact with her for 8 years.

Awww...You never loveD someone so much--or do you still love her?

It's not like I'm paining my heart out, it's just in the back of my head. Whenever I see her online, whenever I remember something from the time I lived in Germany I remember her. I never loved someone so much...

Hmm... I can see now why it'd be pretty difficult to bring up such a serious subject. Are you paining your heart for her or do you just miss her?

Well she talks to me, but she isn't showing any interest at all. Yesterday for example I talked with her on facebook. She asked me how I was, what the weather was like here, but then she didn't tell anything. I was talking but she was only answering with a yes or no and not asking me questions. Then I logged off...

Oh dear. Honestly, don't worry about the impact--take your time, and do it the way you find best--it's the way you've taken that will make the difference. It is completely worth it telling to her; in fact, it's going to be better telling her now than waiting until you've reached a breaking point. And, actually, I came upon the question of such because I thought she didn't talk to you anymore--did I misread or something?

No, I thought about telling her all this stuff, but I don't know how to start this conversation. Then I think that it might not be worth it telling it to her, maybe if I tell her, things will get worse, maybe she won't talk to me anymore or maybe the the things I want to tell her won't have the impact on her that I would expect it to have...

Oh honey... your story is touching. Don't hurt yourself making the past the present. I know you'd feel like you'd be bothering her, but have you told her what you've said here?