Yes, I still remember the feelings although it's been many, many years ago when I was in college. But I look at it as if it just happened yesterday. I think I was 19 at that time. I asked him to give me my journal back because I thought he won't need it anymore. When he returned it, I knew that was it and I'm finally letting this guy go. I'm not sure how he felt but for me, I felt like the whole world fell and I was so alone, followed by countless sleepless nights. I cried and cried... I was so idealistic then. Thought that he will become my husband, the father of my children.
I was wrong.
Years later, after college... our paths crossed once again. I was working as a Merchandise Display Supervisor and he was delivering goods for our store. He asked me if he could see me for dinner that night but I declined his invitation. He did not give up easily and called me again at home. The feelings were not the same anymore. I turned him down for the nth time.
And I never heard of him again. Glad that he wasn't the one. My outlook in life now is totally different from then. How time flies.