Like Yesterday

My first love was my best friend. We were on the basketball team together and she was the manager of our volleyball team. We were inseparable. I loved her with a passion and would do anything for her. Our relationship started when I was a freshman and she was a sophmore and everything was perfect until my junior year and her senior year. It all started out with a phone call. Her and I weren't able to communicate because she was afraid to tell her mother about her sexuality so I bought her a cell phone so we could talk. A month after she had the phone I noticed that for some odd reason we still weren't communicating via the phone I got her so I asked her and she said that she just been busy so I said ok. Then one day I saw her talking and flirting with some other girl! After I saw that I called her when I got home and told her I saw her messing with some other girl and she said that I just misunderstood her actions, and I let it slide like an idiot. Things were getting worse so during gym class (we had that together) I checked her phone since it was basically mine. In the phone was mulitiple texts to this other girl and how much she loved her and wanted to be with her. I also checked the call history and turned out she was talking to the girl more than she was talking to me! I didn't ask her about the texts but I did ask her did she love the girl and she said to my face a big fat "NO" so me being hopelessly in love with her I accepted it. Back then when myspace was popular I had her myspace password and I saw all the incriminating messages in her inbox that almost drove me insane. I printed out all the messages and gave them to her the next day. She apologized and promised she would change and because I just didn't want to give her up I believed her yet again. One day I saw the other girl in the hall and I told her she better stay away from my girlfriend or else. So one good week went by and my girlfriend was happy because she was about to graduate and whatnot. Then one bad day came and we met in the morning like always before school started and we were sitting on the benches. Someone called my girlfriend over and she left her phone sitting on the bench next to me and the other girls name popped up on the screen so I looked at it. They were still texting back and forth building their secret love affair. I was devastated that she still wanted that girl over me and that I could be so stupid to think she would change. I got up ready to confront her but she was in front of her friend and I didn't want to embarrass her so I waited. We both were in the hallway alone and I decided to confront her then. I asked her what she felt for this girl and what it was that she liked about her, and she basically said that the other girl was more exciting and prettier than me. Hearing that broke my heart because finally she came out with it. I dropped to my knees and begged her not to leave me I promised to do better and everything. I was crying and holding on to her leg for dear llife while she was trying to get away from me. Finally I let her go and realized that half the school was watching me cry my eyes out in the middle of the floor while she walked away from me. At that point I couldn't even move but a good friend of mine picked me up and he drove me home. The next day I skipped grief and went straight to anger. I deleted her myspace the previous night, I saw her the next day and took the phone from her and threw it across the hall, and I snatched the hundred dollar necklace of her neck that I gave her for christmas. At my lunch block me and my friend went to the bathroom and the other girl walked in and I blacked out. Apparently I made some threats to the girl and her mom threatned to get a restraining order out on me but honestly I don't remeber what was said but I know I did not hit the girl.

That just goes to show me that people never change..and my heart just recently healed over that break up and that was four years ago.