Over A Year AgoA year and a half ago, I met the girl of my dreams. She was everything I ever wanted in a female, almost like she was made for me. Now me, I was never the most social or out-going guy. I was always shy and timid and never showed my emotions (I still don't). But around her, I dunno, there was a part of me that I didn't know existed.
We dated for two months, and everything was great. We talked every night on the phone for 4 hours, and the conversations were mainly about nothing. But to me, I'm a guy who doesn't talk on the phone, and if I do, I can barely get a conversation out. Hell, I don't even talk to my own mother for longer than ten minutes. But this girl? I could go on forever.
I thought we were happy together, she always made me smile, and I know that I loved her, and I know that she meant everything to me. But one day, it just ended... We basically got into an argument because a guy that I knew liked her was hitting on her and I could tell that he was trying to do things to her, and I guess maybe it was jealousy. Regardless, it was two days before the 4th of July, and I remember we had plans, and she decided that it was best if we broke up.
Now, I never thought that I would be the guy who would whine and beg and plead a girl to get back with them, nor did I ever think I'd be that emotional wreck who was hurt so bad. But I was. Nobody knows this, but the night that she broke up with me, I remember I went outside, walked down the woods of my parents house, and as movie cliche as this is, I remember getting on my knees and just crying so hard.
A little over a year later, and it seems that I cannot get over her. I find myself sitting at night thinking about her and just wondering if she remembers who I am, and if she would talk to me, but knowing it'd be best not to bother her. I know since then she's had a couple of boyfriends, and I know that it does bother me to think about that.
All I know, is over a year later, and I still have feelings for this girl that won't go away. And it's not like I haven't done things to get over her. I've changed a lot of my life around, I've done things to improve myself and improve my life so much... but yet, I can't help but think about her every day. I wonder if I'm crazy or if I'm sick in the head or what it is? I know it was a very painful break up, one that I still feel to this day, and I know that I have feelings for her still that just won't go away.