I Didn't Love Him YetI always promised myself that I would wait until I got out of high school. Sure, I bitched about it like all of my friends did, and told my best friend how much I wanted to lose my virginity when we were seniors and she lost hers, but really, I always intended to wait until after high school. I have no idea why, but that's what I had told myself.
So in august, about three months after my graduation, I had been dating a boy for four weeks. One night we were making out in his car, and I said, "Screw it. This is it." It was my first time, and he knew it. It wasn't his. After extremely pressuring him into it, I lost my virginity that night in the back of his Jeep. I didn't love him then.
That was almost two months ago.
Somewhere between then and now, I fell for him, and I fell hard. I've never said it about any guy I've ever dated before, but I'm in love with that boy.
Most people have a terrible first time, but mine was better than I ever thought it was going to be.
bvernon 18-21, F 4 Responses 2 Oct 17, 2011