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First Time Was An Experience, But The Actual First Time Was Disapointing

HI! USUALLY I START OUT MY SHARINGS BY TELLING EVERYONE MY NAME IS ARCHIE. BUT, FOR THIS STORY, JUST CALL ME FRED OR CHARLIE. LOL
 MY FIRST EVER SEXUAL EXPERIENCE WAS GREAT & A NEW EXPERIENCE. FOR THOSE OF YOU WHO KNOW "ROSEY & HER 4 SISTERS", THAT WAS MY FIRST TIME GETTING OFF. IT WAS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT, I WAS 14 & IT HAPPENED UNDER THE COVERS. WHEN I SHOT I HAD NO IDEA WHAT HAD HAPPENED. I DIDN'T KNOW IF IT WAS BLOOD THAT SHOT OUT (IT WAS DARK), BUT IT SURE FELT GREAT!! "ROSEY" PLEASED ME FOR MANY YRS.
  BEING RAISED ABUSED, I HAD A LOW SELF ESTEEM & THANKS TO MY FAMILY, I DIDN'T THINK MUCH OF MYSELF. I WAS TOO SELF CONSCIENCE TO EVEN ASK A GIRL OUT, LET ALONE GO TO BED.
   IT WASN'T UNTIL AFTER I WAS DRINKING & GETTING HIGH, THAT I GOT THE NERVE TO GO WITH SOMEONE.
 WELL, I JUST REMEMBERED WHERE I HAD MET THE FIRST GIRL I HAD SEX WITH. WE WERE BOTH IN A HOSPITAL, BOTH HAVING ATTEMPTED SUICIDE. SHE WAS 16. I WAS 18. WE GOT TO TALKING & WE USE TO LEAVE THE HOSPITAL & GO FOR WALKS ALONE (THAT IS UNTIL SOMEONE SAW US SUCKING FACE ONE NIGHT, SEEING US THRU THE WINDOW. WE BOTH SAW THE CAR LIGHTS, BUT WE DIDN'T MIND GIVING THEM A SHOW. IT TURNED OUT TO BE SOMEONE WHO WORKED THERE. THAT ENDED OUR WALKS.) WE STILL KISSED & MADE OUT EVERY DAY.
  IT WAS SO FUNNY, WHEN WE WOULD BE SITTING ON THE COUCH & MY MANHOOD WOULD STAND AT ATTENTION. HER EYES WOULD GET BIG. SHE WAS THE FIRST GIRL TO SEE MY MEMBER. THEN TOO, SHE KNEW HOW TO AROUSE ME. SHE WAS NOT A VIRGIN. SHE USE TO GET ME REAL HOT & I DID HER LIKEWISE. WE GOT TO KNOW EACH OTHER REAL GOOD. BEFORE EITHER OF US LEFT, SHE GAVE ME HER ADDRESS. WHEN I GOT OUT, I SURE PAID HER A VISIT.
  I GUESS I'M A BIT WIERD BECAUSE I HAD HITCH HIKED 50 MILES TO GO SEE HER. SHE HAD TAKEN ME TO AN EMPTY APARTMENT THAT A FRIEND OF HERS HAD GIVEN HER THE KEYS TO & WANTED US TO DO IT ON THE FLOOR. I REFUSED. I TOLD HER I WANTED THE FIRST TIME TO BE SPECIAL.
   I USE TO SKIP SCHOOL, HITCH HIKE DOWN TO HER PLACE & SPEND THE DAY WITH HER, IN HER SCHOOL, SITTING BESIDE HER IN HER CLASSES. THE OTHER KIDS USE TO LAUGH, KNOWING I WAS SKIPPING SCHOOL. I THINK WE HAD TOLD THE SCHOOL I WAS HER COUSIN, VISITING HER FROM OUT OF TOWN.
 THEN THE DAY CAME, SHE WAS UPSET WITH HER STEP DAD ABOUT SOMETHING (SHE WOULD HAVE HER MOOD SWINGS.) TRYING TO CHEER HER UP, I STARTED GETTING FRESH WITH HER, WANTING TO TURN HER ON. WE DID IT, IT WAS OVER, & NO BIG BANG!! "ROSEY" DID A BETTER JOB THAN SHE DID.
 AFTER THAT, I GOT WILD. HAVING MUCH SEX WITH MANY HIGH SCHOOL GIRLS & WOMEN. (IN MY SHOP CLASS, ONE OF MY CLASS MATES USE TO CALL ME "THE FIREMAN", SAYING I PUT OUT OLD FLAMES. THE ONLY THING I WAS AFTER WAS SEX.) A LOT OF WHOM I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW THEIR NAMES. JUST SOMEONE I MET AT A PARTY, OR SOMEONE WHO HAD PICKED ME UP WHILE I WAS HITCH HIKING. SADDLY TO SAY, I HAD A LOT OF SEX (THAT STOPPED WHEN AIDS BROKE OUT. WITH ALL THE SEX I HAD & NEVER USED A CONDOM, I WAS LUCKY NOT TO HAVE GOTTEN AIDS.), BUT I HAVE YET TO EXPERIENCE LOVE. YRS AGO, I HAD WRITTEN A POEM. WITHIN STATED, "THOUGH I'M NOT A VIRGIN WHEN IT COMES TO SEX, I AM A VIRGIN WHEN IT COMES TO LOVE." THAT SAID, I GUESS TECHNICALLY (sp?) I'M STILL A VIRGIN??
SORRY IT WASN'T A GLAMOROUS STORY. IT'S BEEN EVEN SADDER FOR ME. I STILL THANK WHOEVER ENDS UP READING THIS. & I HOPE YOUR FIRST WAS MUCH BETTER THAN MY FIRST (NOT COUNTING THE HAND, I MEAN "ROSEY".)
LITTLEBOYINSIDE LITTLEBOYINSIDE 41-45, M 1 Response Apr 5, 2012

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Well cheer up love is not something to give up on! It can happen for anyone at anytime in your life...keep smiling!! :-)