Over Before You Know It

I remember I had contemplated it for months before it actually happened.  Even though I was rebelling against religion, I did still have some of the morality from it.  However, my own family home had a pretty ambiguous moral structure.  I told myself that sex was only for married people but if I was legally able to be married, I would.  I love him and he loves me and that's why people get married so it's not a big deal.

I thought it would be this incredible experience with sparks flying where I could physically express my love to the other person.  We could literally be one and whole just like we were in our hearts and souls.  I also believed that it would be sexually gratifying and feel amazing.  Man, I was so wrong!!!

We were in an old, abandoned house in the middle of the winter.  Some matresses and clothes were still there.  Him and I played ***** poker.  I put my virginity up for a finally bet while we were on our last article of clothing.  (It was a rigged hand, I'd find out years later).  The fooling around part was fine since we'd been doing that for months.  But then came the actual act.  I was freezing, dirty, embarassed, and scared.  I looked away modestly as he put the condom on but he insisted that I see.  The condom was obviously too small.  It didn't hurt like I expected but it didn't happen for more than a few moments!

I hate to say that I was so disappointed!  People talk it up so much and it's nowhere near as glamourous!

theophania theophania
22-25, F
6 Responses Jan 8, 2007

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And you say that guy Loved you? Wow.. good thing.<br />
It'll get better - when you're with someone who is more interested in YOU than just a good time...

oh sweetie. I feel bad for you. Making love is wonderful and very fullfilling. But there is a difference between making love and *******. Id prefer making love. Its two halves ******* together as one being. one essessnse. nirvana!

I liked your story wish there were more details

my first time was with my mother it was the best

I know its ok for me to say but its always the first time with a/body cause the excitement will make them c@um too quick.