It Was Horrible

He was my first serious boyfriend. He was a senior and I was a freshman. He was a "bad boy", which is what I think attracted me to him. We dated for a year before I finally gave in. He was already out of school and he worked for his dad.

The first time we tried, we didn't go through with it, I got too scared and he respected me enough not to push the issue. About a month later, my father was out of town and we were alone at my house. We tried again and it happened this time. OMG did it hurt! I didn't enjoy it at all. When we were done, he looked up at the TV and said "Now look what you did, you made me miss a good wreck on tv". There was a car race on.

So, not only did I hurt physically, but emotionally as well. And, after I let him have all of me, things changed. He became very possessive and jealous. He made me stop talking to all of my friends, told me what to wear, what to watch on tv and what music to listen to. The change was so drastic.

I was too young and stupid to see that what was happening was wrong. I put up with it for another year, until he broke up with me so he could marry his 6 month pregnant girlfriend...

purpleriz purpleriz
51-55, F
3 Responses Mar 14, 2009

Does it change that much after you become intimate and have sex? How different is it.

All I can say is bastard..

Sounds kind of sad. <br />
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He just was blind to what a precious thing you gave him. <br />
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I'm glad you didn't get stuck with him.