This Is What Makes Me Hurt

Song: This is what makes us girls Original Singer/Songwriter: Lana Del Rey

This one is also re-written about my struggle with depression.


I remember how I used to cry all night
Screaming out and searching for a taste of real life
hurting with a small frown I ignite
(heart feeling as cold as ice)

Turning sixteen but I can't survive
Little boy's innocence at the age nine
You don't know my name but I'm in the spotlight
Teachers said I'd never make it out alive

There I was, my only good friend
Low hopes in my head, saying "it needs to end"
While I started to cry, Tears running down my extremly angry eyes:
"Amy, I'm sorry but I need to die."

This is what makes me hurt
I've lost faith but I put them first
Don't wanna die for it, 'cause it's my curse
Can't cry about it, can't cry about it
This is what makes me hurt
I can't keep together 'cause I'll eventually burst
Don't cry about it, go and think about it
It's all gonna happen

And that's where I slowly pull the gun
Everybody knew, didn't stop but made fun
I was skippin' school and drinkin' alone in my room
(With my heart)

Turning sixteen and I couldn't survive
Baby's innocence at the age nine
Don't know my name but I'm in the spotlight
Teacher said I wouldn't make it out alive

I was used to giving in
Giving up my life, paying up for my sin
Tagging from the cops screaming "thanks a lot"
Screaming, "Pull out that gun and take a shot"
(Come on take a shot)

This is what makes me hurt
I've lost all faith but I put them first
Don't wanna die for it, 'cause it's my curse
Can't cry about it, can't cry about it
This is what makes me hurt
I can't keep together 'cause I'll eventually burst
Don't cry about it, go and think about it
It's all gonna happen

The ugliest person that you had ever seen
flesh in my hair wasn't looking as mean
A freshmen loser gets locked, is a has-been
And you know something?

I was the only friend I ever had
Nearly got killed when things got bad
Got sent away, 6 months and I'm gone
Crying 'cause I know my life went wrong.

This is what makes me hurt
I have lost all faith but I put everyone first
Don't wanna die for it, 'cause it's my curse
Can't cry about it, can't cry about it
This is what makes me hurt
I can't keep together 'cause I'll eventually burst
Don't cry about it, go and think about it
It's all gonna happen
Athru Athru
26-30, M
1 Response Aug 7, 2012

Man you an an awesome dude!