I Can't Believe I Did It

 I had been dating this guy for about a month. I don't even remember how we got together, but in truth, i wasn't that into him. he was the only guy i had been with in a long time however, and i was ready to do anything to make him happy.

 We were down at the river, fooling around in his truck, when he said the three words i didn't think i'd hear for years: "do you wanna?" i had never thought that losing my virginity was very important to me, but as soon as he asked i said no. just, "no, i can't." then a million thoughts went through my head, i was so scared and worried what he would think and do, yet i was so sure i wasn't going to have sex with him. he said "even if i have a condom?" and i said no, i just couldn't. again! we went about our business and didn't talk about it again.

 i never thought it was a big deal that i said no. it just seemed right at the time, as if i couldnt have possibly done or said anything else. today i heard stories from people who wished they had the strength to do what i did. i realized that what i did was incredible to some people, and i just now realized that it is incredible to me as well. i am so afraid of saying and doing the wrong thing around guys that i like even today, yet that day, well, as i said before, it was just right. i hope i can show others that its not so hard, that you don't have to please him, and that most likely, it'll be okay with him if you say no.

Tyler Tyler
18-21
1 Response Feb 15, 2007

Awesome.:)