Yes I Never Felt So Lost...

Just tonight I sat on the steps of my barn.. I watched the sunset and the clouds pass over the mountains.. My and my familys life was on my mind..  I was stunned by the tremendous effort it's gonna take to pull outta this one.  I prayed for the first time in years..  I sat on those steps and cried... I cried tears of heartache, lonliness, and sheer exhaustion.. My only witness was Dakota, my confidant..  My most faithful companion, my horse.. He's absorbed more tears than there is water in a river...

CaliGirl3 CaliGirl3
36-40, F
16 Responses Mar 22, 2009

ronsgirl... Thank you so much for sharing that with me.. Yes sometimes we are faced with something that puts all else into perspective.. I truely value that and know exactly where you're comin from..<br />
and yes I was sorrounded by gods beauty.. It helped me to try and clear my mind.. ((hugs)) again thank you..<br />
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sgl... Very very true.. ((hugs))

I hope you will be better.some thing come and other thing shall go.

I hope you the best and will pray for you that what ever you need to pull out of that you do. sounds like you were surrounded by Gods beauity when you were praying.<br />
The problems that I'm going though are stress full . I called my good friend the other day and he told me he had cancer he is in his 40tys. It made my problems small. So I keep telling my self there are people out there that have worst problems then I.<br />
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I heard a story of a young girl and she went Blind and deaf and she could not walk any more. she is now in a wheel chair. She is (failrly young) They asked her how do you cope<br />
with this. (her girl friend signs in her hands for her to understand) She said there is allways someone worse off then you. WOW<br />
They said she allways has a smile on her face.<br />
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It's people like this that is inspiring to me. One day I was going to the pool and I was so worried what I looked like in my bathing suit (Im heavey) So I put my shorts on over it. As I was getting ready to get in the pool , Here came a young worman in a wheel chair, she had no legs she put a flowtasion devise on her where her waist was. She pulled the chair close to the side's and Jumped in the pool. She did more laps then I have ever seen anyone do. With grace and strenth. Then When she was done had a device and pulled her selve out and hoped in her chair and out she wen't. I thought and I am worrierd what i look like. shame on me.I never everWill worried about how I look in a bathing suit . So I have nothing to complain about and I will truely be thankfull to them for reminding me not to feel sorry for my self because there is someone that's allways worst off then me Not To make light of your problems. Just thought I would share that with you.<br />
I really hope everything turns out ok. Have a blessed life

Robyn.. You have repaid the favor just by bein my friend.. Hugs....<br />
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Yep.. The land line... ((hugs))

You know my number don't you?

Ok... I will later... ((hugs))

Hey, you should call me. On my land line. My cell is dead, and I can't call long distance on my land line.

That means alot to me... Thank you sooo much..<br />
((big hugs))

I'm here if you need a friend...<br />
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Hugs

Nelio....<br />
I am sooo sorry to hear about your loss... Very heart breaking to read your comment.... ((Huge Hug))

hi.<br />
my name is nelio and i m from portugal.i m 36 years old.<br />
last year,my wife was 7 months and half pregnant and we lost our litle baby but now she is our angel.stiil hard to acept tis,but we know she is there with god.looking after us all.<br />
thankss<br />
allthe best to you all<br />
hug and kisss

hi.<br />
my name is nelio and i m from portugal.i m 36 years old.<br />
last year,my wife was 7 months and half pregnant and we lost our litle baby but now she is our angel.stiil hard to acept tis,but we know she is there with god.looking after us all.<br />
thankss<br />
allthe best to you all<br />
hug and kisss

Ya know.. Everything happens for a reason.. Maybe I needed that moment.. A moment of self reflection and to dig deep, to figure things out.. I sat there for a few hours thinking and looking around me.. Everything looked so beautiful and my problems, for the first time, felt some what small..

TP.. Wonderful and wise words.. Thank you sooo much.. They are wonderful to hear...<br />
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CA.... back at ya... ((big squeezy hugs))

Awwww.... Dedre... (((big hugs))) Thanks

*sniffle* ....not that I'm biblical by any standards....but this too shall pass...((hugs))