A Fleeting Glimpse of Beauty
I 'saw' something beautiful today.. well, last night, actually. It was a glimpse into something deeply beautiful, wondrous, and peaceful. It happened while I was meditating.
First, a little background.. I started meditating a little over a month ago, every night before bed. Prior to starting this I had experience with connecting, in a spiritual way, to what I refer as my 'inner energy'.. an internal energy that radiates outward throughout my inner core.. my connection with the divine spirit, divine love, God, Tao, the One consciousness.. whatever you may choose to call it. I found that in meditation I could find this connection quite naturally and easily.
A couple of weeks ago I started having problems finding this connection in meditation.. I felt 'blocked'.. could find tiny sparks of it, but could not stay connected for any length of time. I started wondering what was happening, thought that it was perhaps due to some emotional imbalance or something.
Then last night I found the connection again.. clear and strong.. it embraced me, as loving as ever. What brought it back was the 'voices' I heard from my friends yesterday, in a couple of different stories I had commented on. One of the stories had to do with finding the "Silent Witness" within.. and I had described it, for myself, as taking a step back and finding the space in between. I realized that my 'blockage' stemmed from this.. not stepping far enough back, not allowing enough space to form in between.
The truly amazing part of this realization was the sensation of 'hearing' all these voices.. the voices of my friends combined with my own.. many comments and words I had read that day from this friend and from that friend, and my own voice, my own comments, all contained within the mix.. the voices all swirling and meshing together, to allow this realization to form.
And the beauty that I found was a glimpse when I felt all of our voices merge into one.. all coming together to spark this realization.. the sensation that all these voices came from the same source, were all a part of 'me'.. I found that point when 'you' and 'I' become *we*.....
It was amazing.. quite indescribable.. a glimpse into the abyss of the soul. It was peaceful and joyful and wondrous. It was beautiful.