Letting go, letting a person be free, saying it doesn't work and I honestly want you to be happy. I want to be happier also. I've been living with this a while now. The hardest part is learning how to protect my heart in the future. Protect not barricade. Barricading is easy but self destructive. I need to be strong enough to allow another person in and still feel safe. I have this picture of my heart. It's wrapped in what looks like delicate gauze. This covering is soft yet deceptively strong and feels like it could stop a bullet. I can open and close it at will. For now I'll keep this picture with me to help me feel safe until my heart has strengthened on its own. I can see the light at the end of this tunnel. I can almost touch it.