My Son

I had a son that was stillborn over 5 years ago. I've had 3 son's since then, all healthy thank god, but of course that doesn't erase the pain of loosing a child. I have held my 1st born in dreams, he never opens his eyes, but I do get the distinct feeling he is warm, alive? A few weeks ago I woke suddenly in the middle of the night and there was a young boy, about the size of a 5 year old standing next to my bed. He was looking up, not at me. Could it have been my son appearing the way he should be had he lived? I also have felt a tug on my pant leg, as a child would do to get a Mother's attention, but none of my other children were near me at the time. I have heard my name wispered in my ear countless times only to turn around and find no one there. I feel that my 1st son watches over and protects his brothers, because there have been times that they have walked away from accidents that should have caused harm, unhurt. Is this all crazy I make up as way to cope with my loss??
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Jan 17, 2013