I Hurt My Self And Think Worse

It's been seven years since i first hurt myself by punching my metal lokcker on several occasions. It helped me deal with the bullying i was getting from about 85% of my year level. I did it for a few months and stopped untill 3 years later when i started it again. This time hitting concrete, putting my hand in boiling water and poking my self with pins. since then i've been doing it fairly regulary. Now i have an elastic band around my wrist that i am almost constantly flicking myself with, to the point that i have welts and bruises.

in addition to this latly i just can't get the image out of my head of doing more painful things to myself, like throwing my self down the stairs or burning my self.
Corlath Corlath
18-21, F
Jul 16, 2010