My First Self Harm Story. Flashbacks

Dad blew up on me, he didn't understand, he's just trying to help, im just trying to do my work, he's trying to do it for me, i want to do it, scary memories fly through my mind, remembering this past night.
Me running to the bathroom, saying im going to take a shower. Me pulling out the tiny elastic hair ties, putting one around my wrist, the left wrist, pulling it up, letting go, cringing when i felt the first sting, wondering how often i will do this. The pain, the sting, the helpless feeling, the wanting more, yet knowing its going against God. 

I'm lost.
lovahchic lovahchic
13-15, F
May 9, 2012