I Do It Too

I started self harming about a month ago when I split with my boyfriend.

I feel hurt, rejected and unwanted. The emotional pain became so umbearable and thats when i started. I think about self harming all the time.

When I do it I have such a sense of relief afterwards, although I know that this isnt normal I am afraid to stop because its now become a way of expressing how I feel to myself.

Every time I look at my scars and my wounds It reminds that my feelings are real and that what happened to me was a big deal - this prob sounds like a load of rubbish but its how I feel. 

lucylou lucylou
22-25, F
8 Responses Jul 24, 2007

Why should we all have to hide?!? If people can't deal with who WE ARE then boo ****** hoo, but for now out of fear and ridicule we hide, silently...painfully

Why should we all have to hide?!? If people can't deal with who WE ARE then boo ****** hoo, but for now out of fear and ridicule we hide, silently...painfully

Why should we all have to hide?!? If people can't deal with who WE ARE then boo ****** hoo, but for now out of fear and ridicule we hide, silently...painfully

It's definately not rubbish. I had bad problems begin early in 2009. I went through a very painful time, and though I only self harmed maybe 3 or 4 times, and never cut myself, I still harmed myself mentally very much. <br />
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However, before long I knew I needed to repair myself, so I tried real hard for a long time to change myself and fix what was wrong. I'm still problematic, but I am not so horrible depressed anymore. I look back on that time, and know I went through something rather traumatic, but I do not have to be that way anymore, I am much better now, and I hope you can fix your pains as well.

After I hurt myself I feel so much better. My mind is clear and I feel like I can think again. I know how you feel, you're not alone.

That is no way a load of rubbish. I was completely in love with my boyfriend and he dumped me. I felt absoloutely horrible and began cutting myself just like you did. I know exactly how you feel. <br />
Stay strong xxx

this definitely isn't a load of rubbish. i have been self harming for years and constantly ave to hide it from everyone i know. i hate having to hide it but i cant stand not doing it. i know how you feel.

im so sorry<br />
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i know how u feel, trust me