Not Worthy?

I have self sabotaged myself, since i can remember. I honestly feel as tho, i am not worthy of being happy. I know most of this stems from my childhood, but that's not an excuse. I can exceed in anything i do. Only, i want to fail in everything. I feel like happiness doesn't last long. SOmetimes, i feel like people are fake bc they seem happy. Which, of course, i know is not the case. I wish i could remain happy, for most of the time. I wish i didn't purposely fail. : (
Razorgirl Razorgirl
31-35, F
2 Responses May 16, 2012

I think you meant you can succeed, not exceed ; ) Yes you can succeed!

I know most of this stems from my childhood, but that's not an excuse. ..go easy on urself, our childhood leaves scars and mindsets that we long to understand. no body chooses their own childhood, we just get unlucky. we need to deal with the early age scars and forgive our repeated mistakes.. as long as one is alive its an opportunity for a better courageous choices.i recommend ''self compassion'' by Kristin neff...