My Self Harm Story

Well it started when i was 11 i'm 16 now, it started because well i've always kind of been a loner the worst part of my life when i was most loneliest was when i was in year 5 and 6 when no one would even speak to me i would try and make friends but no one would talk to me they'd just talk to me behind my back and laugh at me in class when i got questions wrong i'd sit in the back of the classroom on my own, when i got home i'd sit in my room and just find a bruise on my body and hit it or just press down on it till i was in pain, i didn't know why i was doing it it just made me feel better for some reason, then i left school and went into high school which is where i am now, in year 7 i met some people who i have been close to for about 4 years now who i normally always turn to when i'm upset, but between the four years of year 7 and 11 i gained quite a lot of weight between year 7 and 8 and i got bullied every day and people made my life hell and i ate because it made me feel better until i discovered something else i saw my mum accidentally cut herself while cutting some food for dinner that night so i waited till everyone was in bed and i picked the knife up and washed it then i just started to cut and cut and cut till i bled like crazy and i kept doing that, then people started finding out and making me stop but it was like an addiction, I can't stop my whole body apart from my face is covered in scars i need major help i cut myself all the time, and the bad time of my life was when i took an overdose of 45 pills and slit my wrists. And the story will probably carry on....