One Last Time

Its easy to say you'll stop for this reason or that reason until you're faced with having to deal with those reasons.
I don't want to upset anyone but its hard. I should stop. I have to. But I'm scared to. For the last seven years self harm has been something so close to me. The only thing that's really ever helped. I know that it has taken over my life though. Always in my mind somewhere.
If I do decide to try again to stop I need to do it one last time. Make it the best. Go to the store, get a fresh razor and just **** my **** up, one last time.
I probably should just stop now and let myself heal but I don't think I can even try with out doing it again.
This is going to be like the hardest thing I've ever had to do.
xkrissex xkrissex
18-21, F
1 Response Nov 27, 2012

don't do it again... its like chocolate..one piece makes u want another, but once u have the taste out of your mouth it is easier to stop yourself from starting fresh and getting another which repeats the cycle. you have to be strong and say No. Words speak louder than hidden actions in this case. :) you can do it i know u can :)