I Self-harm

I Want To Stop But I Cant

By: HannaahGrace

Written on January 6th, 2013

Im 15 and ive been self harming for about a year now. I stopped for about 3 months but everything started going down hill so i did it again. Its like an addiction i cant stop and i really hate myself for it. Sometimes i dont know why i do it but most of the time family problems are the main reason. I dont like to talk about it to other people but a majority of my friends and family know. I love my mum but she doesnt love me. Bet you are all thinking 'of course she does. Shes your mum.' wrong. She has never told me that she loves me and she treats me differently to all of my siblings. She doesnt admit it but she is an alcoholic. I think this is the main reason why i do it. I also do it to take out my anger on myself instead of other people and to put my mind on the pain in my arms instead of the harsh reality that i live in. It got worse since my uncle died in afghanistan. I miss him so much and life feels empty without him. I have tried out this thing called the Butterfly Project and i think it might help. I hope it does because i want to stop so bad /: i hate all of the scars on my arms but there isnt much i can do. Who would love someone with scars like mine? :( wish i never picked up that blade ane made the first cut. I hate myself and cutting only helps for a few minutes then i regret it completely

By: HannaahGrace

Age: 13-15 , Female

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7 responses

amy7777777

I used to self harm and quit 3.5 yrs ago. I hated the scars too, I found that Mederma and bio oil helps them fade A LOT. No one can tell I'm an ex-cutter anymore because of them. I realize the behavior is addictive and how hard it is to quit. If you ever wanna talk about it just message me.

Jan 9
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bluegirl23

"I hate myself and cutting only helps for a few minutes then i regret it completely"
----me too.

Jan 8
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- Poemer
  Same here
  
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Poemer

I'm not going against anyone's religion, but to stop you don't need god or Jesus. Though it might help, all you need are supportive people who understand your problems and are willing to help you go against them.if you have that than all you need is just to try to keep occupied otherwise. And I think scars show

Jan 7
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- Poemer
  People's history and what they have been through. That history can make someone more beautiful, and they show the courage that is within them
  
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emmy1127

When I was a cutter art therapy, medication and God healed me. It took a lot and two years of trying, but I got there.
God bless.
Romans 8:18 NIV
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us

Jan 6
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jeeney

u feel helpless.u can not end ur life u can not change ur life.i would not say life is a precious gift.but yeah its not ours,its given to us,we didnt choose it,we dont own it.the life tat includes ur body and soul is given to you to make the best of it.its not important that your mom loves it or not.but u should own it and protect it from evils of outside and inside.from now on u take care of urself cuz u r very special for me.i share tat moment of cutting myself for a while than i was 28,i cried so much,i was alone and helpless and hurt and all my dreams were burst,i had a newborn and a drunk abusive husband and i didnt know wat to do abt my pain.i was in a new city had no frnds.his family was mean and cold.but than i stopped doing it cuz no one gives a damn only my child would suffer more.u r too young,dont do this.it would hurt me.i care for u.talk to me if u need to.

Jan 6
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