On And Off

I started when I was 12 because of my parents. They were abusive and I found something I could control. I stopped for a bit then started again in high school because of pressures, family and bullies. When the abuse stopped I found no more reason so stopped. I started again when my boyfriend of 3 years left me and just recently stopped again. I know I will start again soon. Its about the pain, about feeling real emotion instead of the fake crap I have to show. Its about release and distraction of emotional pain. Once a cutter always a cutter I say. I have never told anyone this but my close friends. I don't think they would have believed me had they not seen my cuts. I don't like making them worry.
drakneko drakneko
26-30, T
Jan 7, 2013