This Is My Last Plea.Everyone always warns of never falling in love. I wish I would've listened. I can't even breath right now. I've been dating Brenner for almost a year. I finally told him that I was molested by my dad when I was little. He left me. He called me a disgusting, incestuous *****. A good for nothing waste of space.
That was all a lie. I've been dating him for three months. I'm horrified that if I ever tell him, that's what he'll do. But if I wait until we are dating for that long and I am in love with him and that happens, I'll die. Even now I can't even breathe thinking about it.
I am absolutely horrified. There's too much pressure in my wrists. I've never wanted to self-harm more in my entire life than right now. Every cell of my being is telling me that I need it. I can't do this anymore. I need help. I need understanding. Please, anyone.
vicspen 18-21, F 3 Responses 0 Jan 23, 2013