All Day Everyday

Everyday I do something new to hurt myself. Cutting is my main source of self harm, but lately ive been doing bottle cap shots of bleach, and also rubbing salt into my open cuts. The pain is like a release for me. And without it I would probably be dead.. but that's also what I want.. I want to die. But I still have things to take care of and do before I kill myself. But, then again.. why does it matter? I only want to be understood. Not critisized.. so please.. if ur gunna tell me to stop, I'm not gunna listen.. thanks
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Jan 27, 2013