I'm addicted to self harming, I just feel so worthless, ugly and insecure. I can just never see my self as beautiful, or someone who has a good personality. everyone just know me as the person who is always happy, but the truth is that I'm actually really depressed. I just feel like I have to be happy, and after what I've experienced I'm not. I just want to feel beautiful inside and out for once
averageme1 averageme1
18-21, F
2 Responses Aug 28, 2014

I know it's hard trust me I felt the exact same way as you not to long ago. I know that you are beautiful. And I know it's hard for you to believe it. Someone who feels so alone that they turn to self harm is someone who is braver than anyone could imagine. You could give up but you aren't you are being strong. Yes you may have scars but those scars make you who you are and show you are a fighter. I know you will overcome this just keep being the strong beautiful girl I know you are. Never loose hope because I know for a fact things can get better. You probably hate hearing that but if you believe it it will happen. Never loose hope. And remember sometimes it's okay to break down you don't always have to pretend to be happy when your not. You might be surprised how many people actually care for you and want to help you. Best of luck with everything. I know you can do anything. I believe in you xx

I know this is really hard to do, but - as long as you're pretending and putting on a happy face, you're going to feel this. IDK what it is you've experienced that has caused your depression, but you do have to confront it openly, seek help, to get past this, to get out of the trap of feeling worthless and ugly.