Married And Sexless For 8 Years. Husband I Just Found Out Does Internet ****, Solo ************.

I am in such pain that I have had to seek psychiatric support w/meds to keep me calm, and a psychologist. It has been 8 long, long years with no sex. I thought my husband was Impotent, but last year I discovered that he has many secrets, is into Internet ****, solo masturbates to it w/the excuse that he has penile excema. To which he uses creams ; but it's not So bad since he goes to his mothers house, watches **** on computer and masturbates to it. I have been patient and I'm no prude. Asked him to do it with me...in fact do ANYTHING as long as I'm a part of it. Of something. He said he would change, but I wait and wait. So many lonely nights and nothing. I cry myself to Sleep, it is mentally brutal on me. I have bee in 2 past relationships and sex was great with them. I am sexually open and wild... Nothing is off limits. But he doesn't care to do anything at all w/me. He saids he finds me attractive & loves me. He is main bread winner (so I am financially tied down). He has a high position in his job. He has kept me out of his work environment... Here again secrets that he socializes with them after work hours (brotherhood & sisterhood thing) and I guess he doesn't want someone have an accidental slip of the tongue. I wrote new vows and asked him to open Doors... He said he would, But no change. Pls someone out there talk to me. I feel so alone!!!
Lovelessandinpain Lovelessandinpain
46-50, F
May 22, 2012