I should be happy but I am not. It is hard to find happiness anymore. I do have so much to be happy for. We own our house and land that is a start. I have two beautiful kids. I have a husband I love so much and who loves me. I have food in the house. I have pets, pets and more pets. I don't know though things seem like they could be so much better. It is my depression that brings me to this I know it is. It pulls me down and won't seem to let go. I love my life but I am just not happy with it and I wish I could change it.