i just can't let people get into me. i can love them for a while when they do, but then i kick them out eventually. i am living a twisted self fulfilling prophecy. that no one will actually love me and if someone thinks or pretends that they can, i just think they're stupid and i am not worthy, so they gotta go. so i end up with the thing i feared in the beginning. painful solitude. i don't want to be like this anymore. i've shut out such beautiful people.........bf.
TheRealMimi TheRealMimi
31-35, F
1 Response Mar 8, 2010

that's why i feel slightly stupid on this one...but i do everything the wrong way round *sigh* thanks for ur comments guys. bf.