Ever had so much feeling... So much emotion built up inside that it just pours out your eyes?? Yeah, that's me... Just sitting here typing through the tears.

Questions that are masterfully avoidied.. Answers that hang in the air just outside your reach. Feelings ready to burst from your heart...

Fear that you've hurt someone's feelings without meaning to... Fear that you'll loose the one thing that has made you so happy through your own stupid actions.

I sit and cry a lot. At home... Sometimes while driving... At work, at the river and always at the lake...

Waking up with my stomach in knots... Tears in my eyes from nightmares caused by stress and fear.

I am so afraid of loosing you.. And equally afraid of never having you fully, so to pass the time I am alone... I sit and cry

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Sep 15, 2012