Just The Meandering Of A Socially Inept Person. Read At Your Own Discretion.
While I don't spend my entire day in my bedroom, I do spend it exclusively in my house, seated in front of my computer, which unfortunately I am obliged to share with the rest of my family.
I'm glad I found this group because I feel so alone and estranged from society. I have severe depression and anxiety. I'm socially inept and cannot for the life of me maintain small talk. All of this is the main reason why I retreat from the outside world and live in virtual seclusion.
It's getting tiring though. Actually, it's been tiring for quite some time but I don't know of any other way I can live. I don't know how to socialize properly or make friends. People absolutely terrify me. Also, I feel so completely boring and uninteresting, and lately it's been worse than ever. I feel as though I'm submerged in a filmy pool of vapidity.
I don't cohere with this structured, boxed-in society. I'm too introverted, too aloof. I'm absolutely terrible with verbalizing my thoughts as well. I constantly stammer, pause, and stop mid-sentence, and more often than not what I say is overlooked or interrupted. Apparently I'm invisible?
Anyway, I was hoping to find others who can relate and who also live an internal existence.
There must be others besides myself who are awkward, introverted, and not especially well regarded in society.
Blah blah blah blah. So this was me essentially pouring my heart out. I otherwise try not to sound so pathetic, but ehh, I guess deep down I'm just a pathetic person.
Hope everyone else is having a great day in their rooms! =]