No Love

I truly believe that the reason that I started sleeping with people that I felt nothing for, is because I was raped at the age of 13 and I lost viginity to a rapist. I felt so dirty after it happened to me, I wanted to find someone that would make me feel like I was special to them. Find someone that I would of given my virginity to if it was taken from. I went the wrong way about it, but I did find that person it took me a long time. By the time I was 15 I had slept with over 30 people. I was careful though I went to the health unit every 3 months to test myself for STDs. I really didnt care if I had got one or not, but I didnt want to pass it to someone else. After a while I was addicted to sex, I loved the way it made me feel, I didnt care who it was with. I was addicted to it. I still am I have to have some sort of sex at least 5 times a week. All I ever wanted was to feel love when I had sex with someone.