I Slept With People I Felt Nothing For

It Was a Phase...

By: vampireheart

Written on July 15th, 2008

I admit, I wasn't as modest with my body as I should have been in my younger years. Between the ages of 18 and 23ish, I pretty much just gave my sex away to people who thought I cared and might pursue something further with. I haven't counted the number in a long time, but it's not the number that counts, it's that I have one. Yes, I feel guilty about it. The people I slept with weren't much to brag about either. And at the time, my mentality allowed me to believe that it was something for them to brag about, the fact that they had me.

I'm not sure what it was, back then. I had my heart broken at 18 by my first girlfriend, then further broken by my first REAL love. After that, I just didn't care. I met people, did 'em, moved on, all the while them thinking they might have a chance with me. Most of them were good people too. Maybe not eye candy, but I can't say I'm total eye candy either. (but I am cute)

I feel bad about it and I know that I've used these people, and I feel bad that they know. I often wonder how they are, because they were, at one point, friends. I abused that honor of being these people's friends.

But that was then, this is now. I was actually faithful for years to a woman that I wasn't even in a relationship with yet. But I had hoped to one day be in a relationship with her. Now I am!

By: vampireheart

Age: 31-35 , Transgender

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anonomizer

Does your current girlfriend/wife know about your past, do you think that she percieves your relationship different because of it aat all.

(I ask because I'm in a similar situation with the roles reversed, I'd be lying if I said it didn't bother me but I do believe that she doesn't value our inttimate relationship the way I do, it doesn't mean as much to her because she was caareless with it when she was younger, which is much more bothersome)

Jun 28, 2011
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aniowagirl

i think we all went thru that phase. we did all the girls we had the opportunity to.

you know trying to find the one that was best or the one we wante to spend the rest of our lives with.

in the end we found out that there was really not much difference in any of them as far as sex went.

it was the kind of person they were deep down that made the difference.

Feb 21, 2011
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berrychic

We'll let bygones be bygones for the past, congratulations and good luck for the now and best wishes for the future ; )

Dec 23, 2010
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