It Is So Hard Sometimes

You let someone in...you don't do that too often. You allow them to know you, really know you...you trust them...rely on them. Friends...that's what we were, friends. Yet I found myself left crying too many times, disappointed too many times, alone too many times...

We had some sort of connection, one I couldn't get away from...no matter how hard I tried....

But, I finally had enough...was disappointed for the last time. I ended the relationship...it was hard, but I did it. I am so sad and I miss my friend, yet I know I made the right decision...

I am not able to cry on the outside...too many people around all the time...too many people who didn't know about my friend. I want to cry, need to cry, but can only cry on the inside...have to get through this on my own.

The weekend isn't so bad, usually not much interaction anyway. The coming week will be hard. Usually interact every day...at least once a day. I hope I'm strong enough to keep from contacting...to keep from responding when contacted...

purpleriz purpleriz
51-55, F
1 Response Mar 21, 2009

I have done that.<br />
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Let a boy in and fell in love with him just to get hurt twice. Together, broke up, together,broke up<br />
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I cried both times. <br />
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I have given up on love for awhile.