A weathered woman I was.  Although I'm not that old, I felt weathered and beaten.  Life has it's ways with it's ups and downs, but in my life it just seemed to be down most of the time.  I was not married, had no children, and no family to speak of.  I had found a friend in Jesus, but sometimes I still needed the love or chatter of an 'earthly' friend.  The lonely walks, the time spent alone, with no one to laugh with or cry with.  'Why bother?' I thought.  One rainy cold night, I decided that really, there was no reason to bother.  I decided to take a walk down to the bridge in the south side of town.  Today would be the day, the day that would finally end my quest for finding a  reason to be happy.

I walked down an alley way and through the park.  My head bowed against the wind, and my mind set and determined to complete this task.  On the way my life flashed before me.  I saw my mother, falling over after having one too many drinks.  I saw my father screaming and yelling.  I saw my best friend pass away, and I saw my Grandmothers last smile.  I saw and felt the pain when they took me away from my parents, and I saw all the families I lived with over the years.  I saw the family that really did care at one time but weren't allowed to keep me too.  The tears were streaming down my face, and all I could think is, the pain has to stop.  "I was never given the chance to smile Lord, Please forgive me" I thought.

Deep in thought, I didn't even see the vagrant in front of me as I clumsily walked right into him.  Instantly the stench filled the air around me.  Standing before me was  a short little man.  His hair was sloppy, his clothes torn and disheveled, and he reeked of alcohol.  He looked up square in my eyes in that split second without saying a word.  Such a powerful look, like he knew me.  Really knew me.  Breaking the penetrating stare and silence, I simply said sorry, and walked past him.  

"Wait!" he demanded with such authority.  I froze still.  I didn't look back, I just froze still.  "Listen", he said, "Smile, that's all you have to do.  Just smile, and your prayers will come true".  Shocked by the oddness of what I just heard, I spun around to face this little  vagrant with the kind words.  Only to find there was no one there!  Not one single soul walking on either side of the street for as far as I could see.  The tears came flooding like never before, as I lifted my face to the Heavens with a smile on my face.  This day, I felt, was the first day of my life.

Now married with children, I am happy as can be.  I have a family, people who love me and much more.  When I met my husband, I knew we were meant to be.  I remember him telling me when we were talking about music on one of our first dates "I have this one all time favorite song".  "What song is it" I asked.  "Smile" he said.  I never heard this song before, so he sung it to me.

Smile, though your heart is aching,
Smile, even though it's breaking, 
Though there are clouds in the sky, you get by...

If you smile through your fears and sorrows,
Smile and maybe tomorrow,
You'll see the sun come shining through.

If you just light up your face with gladness,
Hide every trace of sadness,
Although a tear may be ever, ever so near.

That's the time you must keep on trying,
Smile, What's the use of crying?
You'll find life is still worthwhile
If you'll just smile, come on and smile.

If you just smile

I will never forget the night I was given a reason to smile,
the night my life was saved through the power of prayer.

This story was given to me by a friend that took her own life. I do not know who the author is but it is the reason I always try to remember to SMILE!

maxwell maxwell
46-50, F
2 Responses Jul 12, 2007

What a beautiful story and I do know the song smile.Like you though,I don't know who sings it either.<br />
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God does work in mysterious ways!<br />
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Thank you for sharing that and I'll remember to smile more often.

The Universe, or God, or the Energy of Life, always always has a way of waking us up and whispering into our consciousness that we need to <br />
take hold and follow our destiny. <br />
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You CAN NOT BLAME ANYONE for your lack because most of it is due to <br />
your own poor concepts of yourself and little faith in your ability to build a future. <br />
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The first place to begin is with a SMILE at yourself, then others. <br />
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