First Time Smoking Weed. Crazy Story..

         Hey people. Last Saturday night (I’m writing this on Monday night) around midnight with my roommates I smoked weed for the first time. I have never smoked anything before so this was very new to me. So I took one puff of a blunt and then they took out a bong. My friend lit it for me and I took a 5-10 second puff and blew out. I don’t remember feeling any effects from that first one. It just tasted really, really bad in my throat and left a kind of bad aftertaste. So the bong was passed around and I took 1 more puff for about 5-10 seconds again. I had a sore throat at the time and I remember the smoke burning my throat A LOT b/c it must have agitated my sore throat. I told them I didn't want to smoke anymore b/c of my throat and they were fine with that.
   What happened next was something scary that I had never experienced. I was in the room with them and all of a sudden I find my self looking up at the ceiling for a few seconds and then drifting back into "consciousness" a few seconds later. It was as if I had lost control of my self for a few seconds and when I came back into reality, it was like a mini flashback. So then it happened again and I started to panic b/c I didn’t know if this was what being high really felt like or if there was something seriously wrong with me. I had taken a prescription antibiotic pill for my sore throat for the first time earlier that night so I was very paranoid that it was a lethal combination with the weed. My friends told me that weed doesn’t effect meds and also that the info with the meds didn’t say anything about no weed or even alcohol. So being the slight hypochondriac that I normally am, you can imagine what I was feeling at the time.
        Then I went for the door to leave the room in which I almost fell on someone on the way out. It felt like I was in a dream, more like a nightmare actually. I then ran outside where it was drizzling hoping to "walk it off." But it didn’t work and I was scared out of my mind. Everything seemed to slow down a bit and every few seconds I seemed to drift off and then regain a sense of what happened. Almost like a mini flashback of the last few seconds. It’s very hard to describe. Now I am a very sensible person. But I tend to do crazy things when I have a little panic attack. I used to have them as a kid when I was lost or I didn't know where my dad was. As a kid, I would go paranoid and start thinking that I would be lost forever or that I would never see my family again. So having a panic attack while also being high for the first time was something that I had never experienced before in my life and must have magnetized the panic effects. I don’t know if what I did next was the panic attack that I may have had or if it was the weed or if it was both. I started to run outside and begged for the effects to stop. But it didn’t and I slammed my water bottle down and yelled ****! I was as scared as ever that something was very wrong with my body. I tried to convince my self that this was normal but being the kind of hypochondriac that I am, I just couldn’t do it. I just kept thinking that the weed combination with the meds somehow affected my brain and the effects would go on forever. I ran back into the apartment and asked told a couple of my roommates what I was feeling. I felt stupid in a couple different ways. Stupid in one sense that I had trouble describing how I felt. It is hard to describe now so you can imagine how hard it was then. I tried to tell them my effects and that I wasn’t sure if this was normal or if I had a serious problem. I also felt stupid because I had trouble making out the words and completing a sentence without stuttering. It seemed like my words were going slow and now upon thinking about it, I sounded like a typical pothead portrayed on TV where they talked slow and said seemingly random things. Finally, I felt stupid in the sense that I was way overreacting to this and in the morning I would feel like a complete idiot for tripping out over nothing. I tried to tell my roommates that this would be either really funny in the morning because of how trippy I was acting over just being high, or it would be very scary in the morning if the effects were still lasting and I was really damaged.
They told me to come inside and “Enjoy it” or “Get some sleep” but I couldn’t do either and was determined to get the effects off of me. I think I mentioned how I may have needed to go to the hospital if the effects worsened. It was a weird feeling because it felt like I wasn’t in control of myself for the first time in my life during the constant few seconds that I “Drifted off.” By “In control” I don’t mean that I would do impulsive things, but rather didn’t know what was going on. Now I’m certain that my extreme worrying exaggerated the effects because my mind was thinking out the worst possible scenarios. I’m not even sure if I was having real effects or if I was artificially creating them because I was so paranoid. But yet again, the paranoia was because of the weed so it could have been both. But either way, I don’t even think I would of liked the effects of being high even if I had KNEW this was completely normal and would go away. Knowing myself, I might flip out again because even now I’m not sure if the effects I had were normal. So I then started to walk outside still hoping to somehow walk off the effects. I ran into someone I knew and asked her to help. So we sat down for a couple minutes and I tried to describe what was going on but I felt kind of "Dumb" and I couldn’t really explain it. She said I sounded really hyper and I thought she was being sarcastic because I felt like I was talking in a slow pace. I think it was because I felt really slow and tried to talk fast to make up for it. She also said later on that I was walking in random directions quickly which I believe I was doing because of my panic. I don’t remember everything that was said between us but I suddenly felt like my mouth was dried shut. It felt like my lips and throat was completely absorbed and dry. I kind of felt like I was going to die because I didn’t know what was happening to me. I was panicked and I believe told her repeatedly in a panicked tone, “My mouth is wet. My mouth is wet” when I really meant to say it was dry. She knew what I meant and I rushed inside and sped to the faucet and quickly filled a cup of tap water. I gulped the water as fast as I could and some water fell down on my shirt. I remember thinking how funny my antics probably looked but I wasn’t able to think about that much because of how panicked I was. I don’t know if the dryness was the weed effect or the panic effect. The dry feeling thankfully went right away to my relief.
I wanted to go to bed but I was determined to get rid whatever I was feeling.  But soon I started to realize that it wouldn’t go away that night and I tried to go to bed.  This was kind of hard because I kept drifting in and out thoughts and I simply couldn’t shake the feeling that there was something really wrong with me. I was in bed for about an hour still pretty high and I wasn’t able to get to sleep because of all the thoughts in my head. Every time I almost fell asleep, my head started to pound and I had the urge to move my legs as if there was something on them and I had to shake my leg to get it off. I started to become irrational and was thinking crazy thoughts. I began to wonder if this feeling would ever go away. I began to think that if the feeling didn’t go away then I didn’t know how I would be able to live with myself. I was thinking what I would tell everyone how I felt and what I would do if the effects didn’t fade. I was honestly scared that I wouldn’t wake up or that I would be in a coma or something along those lines. But again, I was being irrational. Around 2 AM, I decided to write a note to put on my door to my 2 roommates so that they would not only wake me up so I could watch football, but to make sure I could wake up. So I basically crawled over fours and scribbled a note saying for them to wake me up at 9 AM.
I was woken up at 9 and could still feel the effects. It wasn’t so much that I was high, but I didn’t feel myself at all. It is almost impossible to explain, but I didn’t feel myself. It kind if felt like I was dumber and wasn’t thinking in my normal state of mind. I also felt like I was still drifting in and out of thoughts but to a much lighter extent then the night before. It had been almost 12 hours since I smoked so I don’t know if the weed was still affecting me or if my mind was playing tricks on me. Either way, I was getting more paranoid that this feeling wasn’t going away. Usually on Sundays I only care about football but this Sunday, I was too worried to focus too much on the games. I was mainly focused on trying to get back to “Normal.” I was feeling unusually tired so I slept from 10-11. When I woke up I was feeling better, but still not normal. I went through the next 5 hours watching football but I could tell that I was not thinking how I normally would. It was almost as if I was more relaxed but I was beginning to fear that I would stay this way forever. Again, I felt tired and pretty out of it so I slept from 4PM-5PM. I had slept only 1 hour but when I woke and saw it was 5 o clock, I thought it was 5 am and figured I had slept for 13 hours. It was not only till I walked into the living room to see my roommate had I realized I had slept only 1 hour rather then 13. I think this exemplifies how the weed was still in my system and was affecting me. I then slept 2 more hours until 7.
I still felt the same after I woke up on that Sunday night. Again, I was completely “Normal” except for the fact that I didn’t feel like my normal self.  I tried to convince myself that I was making this up in my mind but I really felt different. It was almost as if I had forgotten who I really was and this would become the new me. I felt normal at times but I always went back to feeling different.
That night I went to sleep still feeling weird and I was hoping that I would feel back to myself in the morning. I woke up Monday morning and as soon as I woke my eyes, I immediately felt that I was still feeling different. I tried to look at myself in the mirror to try to remind myself of who I really was. It felt weird because I kind of looked at myself differently then I had before. I remember how I still felt different and how I still kind of drifted off for a few seconds at a time. I felt kind of dizzy as I walked outside but I think these effects were being created by my mind because I smoked the weed over 32 hours ago and it wasn’t likely that I was still feeling the effects. I got pretty paranoid that I wouldn’t return back to normal or that I was already normal and my mind wouldn’t allow me to accept that rationale. But I walked outside and got some coffee and I started to feel the effects wear off a bit. I don’t know if the coffee allowed me to think better or if the weed was naturally wearing off after 36 hours, but I began to feel normal again. By 12PM on Monday, I think the effects had completely worn off. It was one of the biggest reliefs ever, to be able to think in my normal state, something that I had taken for granted before.
While saying that I am glad I had this experience is a little over the top, I don’t completely regret it. I would have never in a million years have thought what 2 seemingly simple puffs of smoke could do to my body. It is kind of scary to know that it exists but also comforting to now know the effects it can create. After 36 hours of worrying if I would be able to go back to my normal self, I now won’t take it for granting. Even if the effects I had were being created by my mind or by the weed, I am ultimately glad I smoked it because I now don’t take for granted looking in the mirror and recognizing a familiar face.
johhny12345 johhny12345
18-21, M
15 Responses Oct 19, 2010

First off. when THC has never been present in your body and you smoke out of a BONG... You obviously get hit harder than ****. Second off you smoked WAY... WAY too much for a first timer, and you could probably get high off of your first inhale. Marijuana takes a few minutes to kick in... The effects aren't what you think they are before you smoke it. I had the same experience man. I smoked some of the best weed in my area and smoked way too much and had a panic attack, It happens alot with first timers, try it again in a good state of mind and only hit it a little not alot just a bit and wait 10 minutes and see if you get the effects. P.S. your high's will never be the same with marijuana after that first one, the first high is usually really strong because you've never smoked before.

It's called Depersonlisation! You can induce this state of disconnection by smoking pot, but usually it doesn't last too long, usually a few weeks at worst. But sometime is can last longer, so you need to be careful! People who suffer panic attacks experience these feelings during panic and sometimes people with severe anxiety, grief or trauma can have these feelings for months if they remain in an anxious state! Basically, it's your brain not working properly - pot causes it because it interferes with normal brain activity and anxiety, trauma, grief and panic cause it because it's the minds' way of protecting itself from the onslaught of extreme emotion.
So yeah, it's everything you're describing; not feeling yourself, feeling differently about yourself, being 'out of it', not recognising yourself in the mirror, etc. Anyone that has this should know that it is NOT permanent, but you have to not stress over it, because the more you stress, the longer it stays. For more deets you should check out

Uh so, you freaked out because you felt diffrent than normal ? WTF

after a cup of coffeee you probably freak out aswell

HEY! for all the people saying this guys' experience was a salvia trip you have NNOOO idea what you're talking about. I had salvia 10x and obviously did not repeat, and let me tell you salvia is NOTHING like these normal pot effects for first timers. In salvia you lose life and who you are and your name and where you are. You have no control of your body and start to run and walk without consciousness. YOU.HAVE.NO.CONTROL. WHen I did it, I was in my bathroom and had towels spread everywhere, and in the trip I was TALKING to my towels because i felt we were "misbehaving" and my computer was my consciousness. my computer was there and told me that I was doing something wrong and I needed to fix the situation. at that point I didnt even kno who I was, my name, or that I was on some drugs. It felt like an hour but was 15 minutes probably. I was putting the pieces together saying stuff like "OOOOH AHAH YOU WERE TRYING TO PROTECT ME" to my computer because it was. lol. I vividly remember saying that to myself, waltzing around my room with no control. I had a song playing in my head and everything was hazzy. This description makes me want to do it again, but it was my first drug experience and i was horrified. Had it happened longer than 15 minutes I may have admitted to it to other people and begged them to help me. No that didnt happen until I was on a marijuana lollipop double dose chronic that lasted 5 HOURS! Big difference, I knew I was high. But I kept entering different realities and coming back and remmebering what happened a few seconds after. I kept forgettign who what and where I was. I thought it was abnormal too! I finally found someone (johnny) who had the SAME experience. Thank god. I think I was just really stoned. I'm sureif I just got mildly high with some friends I'd be fine and enjoy it. :) Anyway, obviously none of you have done salvia so who are you to judge?

kingGeedorah, story in a nut shell:<br />
used medical weed and got really high. had a BAD anxiety attack at a restaurant. couldnt lift my head off of the table, couldnt talk, mind was confused, sweating buckets, weak, thought i was dying, etc. i eventually threw up. took a nap and i felt a bit better. ever since then i noticed moments of "doom" and darkness and silly little bits of social anxiety. i was still able to live my life and i was happy, but i did notice a change for many months. then, i took a one-hitter in florida, and i very much enjoyed the high. however, the next night i drank, and couldnt fall asleep. my mind felt tortured. i was in a lot of pain. ever since then my life has been completely different. perception on life, motivation, EVERYTHING. months and months later im having crying spells from morning to night, for no reason. i feel scared all the time, but i dont know of what. i loved myself and my life, but now i dont even feel like im living that life anymore. i feel like a different person. i look in the mirror and see a familiar face, but there's no connection. everything in life is pointless and im hopeless. i cant be alone anymore, and i used to love my alone time. i cant enjoy music, tv, movies, dancing, ANYTHING anymore. maybe the weed triggered an underlying panic disorder? i dont know, i am getting help, but i do have a fear of medication and pills. im taking zoloft and klonopin. im very tired. im supposed to be full of life. my negative thoughts are scaring me, and my perception is not right. im very scared. =/

People that got this kind of trip the first time, it is because of the paranoia thing.. <br />
I got the same trip the first time I smoked, and the second aswell, and so on.<br />
But you just have to acept the effect, it's all in ur head, you make your high.<br />
It's a wondefull thing, and you shouldn't be scared, you just got really high, ur body is not used to it.<br />
Take 3 hits the next time, and see how it effects you.. <br />
Everything's going to be alright u know. just don't be scared of the effects, embrace the effects..<br />
and listen to some really good music.. pink floyd-dark side of the moon!!<br />
Just go with the music :b<br />
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That helped me (:

kmmdancer, do you mean you are having an experience like this four months after using cannabis? If so, I highly doubt it's related to your prior use. Please talk to a professional about what you're experiencing, you don't have to figure this out on your own.

i have had this exact experience, but it's now 4ish months later. it triggered my genetic depression maybe? im very scared and dont feel like myself. my perception is off. what do i do?

Hey johnny. I appreciate you returning and commenting, I'm certainly not here to deny anyone's experience, it just appeared that way to me. Your profile said you had not been online since the day after you posted the same story in five different groups, so it looked like spam. Now that you're back in the digital flesh so to speak, I stand corrected.<br />
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I don't really have any further comments on the story itself, I still think that you likely ingested something other than pot, or it was laced. Salvia and spice could be easily passed off as marijuana to someone that doesn't know any better; and as I understand it, people can have pretty bad experiences with those drugs if they don't know what they're getting into... Some people do experience extreme dysphoria smoking pot, but it's rare and indicative of other problems.<br />
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Anyway, you're wiser for the experience. Thanks for coming back and commenting.

Hey Greenhazed. Its me. This is NOT spam and i did NOT exxageratte. I havent commented becuse i just wanted to get other peoples opinion on my experience .nd u re right, the weed probbly didnt fftect me the full 36 hours and it was prollyin my mind, but tht was the way i felt.

I'm afraid I'm gonna have to agree with GreenHazed. Pot and most hallucinogens can have a strange effect on people with control issues, especially if panic attacks are involved. It sure as **** isn't going to last any where near 36 hours. Maybe an hour at most.

I felt the need to comment here again for those less experienced with cannabis, that may be curious about it and happen upon this story.<br />
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The above experience is more than highly unlikely and I doubt even medically possible. This user Johnny12345, copy and pasted this story to 5 different groups, hasn't written anything else, and hasn't been back since. This is spam, nothing more, and I call bullshit.

lol What am I reading?<br />
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Your experience sounds more like a bad salvia trip. I can almost guarantee you that you smoked something other than (or in addition to) marijuana. I believe your roommates understand your paranoid nature, and were having fun with you.<br />
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Yes, pot affects people differently. But 36 hours? This sounds like a Partnership For A Drug Free America sc<x>ript.

It is good you had that experience. During the entire time I was reading your story, I wanted to tell you to "relax, its ok". I too had uncomfortable paranoia the first time I smoked, but eventually it went away. I slept it off and in 5 hours I was fine again. 36 hours seems like a long time for a little pot to effect someone, but I dont know. Like the other responses, I agree, it effects everybody differently.<br />
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Your OK son. Weed isnt for everybody. At least now you know it isnt good for you. I'm a pothead, and it helps with my medical condition.

Thanks for sharing your experience. It is very unfortunate that you had this unusual reaction. Most people do not - but don't feel bad. Just know that you need to be very careful and cautious with ANY chemicals / substances you take into your body. In very rare cases - marijuana can trigger a schizophrenic psychotic break - but this is only for people who are already genetically prone to schizophrenia. <br />
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What is more likely in your case is that you suffered from a bad case of paranoia (as you did mention you tend to be a hypochondriac) combined with the fact that you have a very sensitive system. <br />
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If you ever do try any mind altering substances in the future - make sure you take very tiny doses and that you are surrounded by good friends who will watch out for you.<br />
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If you want to learn more information about the positive and negative effects of Marijuana you should go to a site called EROWID. This site is not filled with propaganda and will have links to other intelligent sites. Take care.