Has This Ever Happened to Anyone Else?
Okay, so I don't really smoke pot. If it's at a party or something and it's passed to me, I'll partake, but other than that, never. So far I've only smoked it twice in my life (and there's a huge four year gap in between each time). The first time was fine, actually, but the second time . . .
I was at a party and had been drinking really heavily. We were playing drinking games with red bull and cherry UV vodka. Then the pot got passed around, and I'd never used a pipe before, so my friend had to teach me how to toke. It was pretty hilarious, actually.
Everything was cool, until some douchebag (my friend) had to bring up a topic I feel very strongly about. She, another one of my friends, and someone I didn't even know ganged up on me, trying to convince my views were wrong and immoral. Of course, I felt attacked, largely because someone I didn't even know was involved and I was too intoxicated to defend myself against all three people. I ran up the stairs, yelling a few choice words at them as I did so, and went to the backyard. I sat out there and suddenly everything seemed so bleak. I had flipped the @#$@ out! I felt hopeless, worthless, and could hardly keep track of all the negative thoughts racing around my head. My stomach was a mess of fattening food, alcohol, and marijuana (I really don't know why I thought that last one; I was @##%ed up) and I wanted it out of my system. I wanted to feel clean, so I tried to make myself throw up, but I couldn't.
Has anyone else ever had a freakout like this after smoking? Were you drinking heavily, too, like me? Are there cheap, easy ways around this like boosting serotonin production with 5-HTP? Am I just @#$#ed up?