Anxiety And Hate

I'm 18 and I started smoking Weed when I turned 13ish.

It started off as just a little experiance with a friend, under curiosity. But I was never really in the need for it. I could go months, I even went a year without it.

But My life fell apart. Everything about it just crashed.

I live in a truck, I go to school and do the best I can and live through my boyfriends overly emotional bipolar experiances that mix with his anger problems and he conflicts with my bipolarness.

The stress has become so great, I smoke weed now.

I need it once a week to even once every two weeks.

It's the only thing that keeps me from killing people and it keeps my anxiety and fears all around me die. No medication seems to fix the anxiety that has overwhelmed my life.

I smoke weed, I don't give a ****. If I didn't smoke weed, I think I'd ******* give up on everything in my life. Weed makes me productive and gives me the push to keep going in hopes for a better thing.

RoTTenKoRn RoTTenKoRn
18-21, F
1 Response Mar 13, 2010

i so hear ya girl!! Sorry to hear bout your ****** situation but you seem to be trying to stay positive about it. I am here for you if you need someone to vent/talk to... dont be shy xo