Smoked And Smoking

I first smoked at 14. No peer pressure (my peers were happy to smoke any you refuse themselves), no traumatic episode to make me want to "throw it all away" on drugs. I was chronically depressed and anxious, and had already learned to self-medicate with alcohol--the real gateway drug.

Cannabis offered the milder buzz, and the adjusted perspective that lets us see that major drama is usually just about petty inconveniences. It is no exaggeration to say that i may have killed others or myself at one point, had i not been able to take that step back and think about things.

Not to sugar-coat it, though, my over-use of this drug has almost certainly prevented me from reaching my potential. I have quit for up to 2 years at a time, and will again. It is interesting to see what's under the cobwebs. For now, however, i am cursed with a baountiful harvest.
rattleschains rattleschains
41-45, M
Jan 6, 2013