I'm AddictedA note to those who aren't addicted yet, I'm pleading you to quit before you become dependant. Now, my experience. In the past, I was against any pill usage. However, I did get myself hooked on street drugs for a few months. Nothing I did could ever compare to the addiction with pills. I was an oxycontin addict for quite some time. I started out with vicodin, moved on to percocets, perc 30s, morphine, roxycontin, oxycontin, opium powder... Anything I could snort to stave off my opiate withdrawals. When you're addicted to opiates and you just quit, you honest to God feel like you're dying. I quickly reached a point where I wasn't taking them to get high... I just didn't want to feel sick. I wanted to feel normal. And only snorting $60 worth of a pill would make me feel "normal" for several hours. I spent over $8,000USD on opiate perscription painkillers off the street in under a year's time. And I got them cheap. I didn't sell, I snorted everything I had. Recently, I was perscribed Xanax for anxiety and since I was fond of the similar benzo, Valium, I have been snorting Xanax like it's my job. In fact, I sniffed a pill before I wrote this very story. I put myself in rehab in the past, but I didn't stay clean. I took drug counseling for myself, but I kept using. I went to NA meetings but just stopped all together. Pills ruined my whole life. My career, my family, my friends, the love of my life, my education, my self esteem, my personality, my interests and activities, everything. Pills took everything away from me because I let them. Please take heart to what I say. Snorting pills is a terrible path to go down. I self medicated to take away the pain, but it ended up causing the grief and struggle all along. Please be careful.
waiting4accident 22-25, F 8 Responses 4 Oct 16, 2009