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I'm Addicted

A note to those who aren't addicted yet, I'm pleading you to quit before you become dependant. Now, my experience. In the past, I was against any pill usage. However, I did get myself hooked on street drugs for a few months. Nothing I did could ever compare to the addiction with pills. I was an oxycontin addict for quite some time. I started out with vicodin, moved on to percocets, perc 30s, morphine, roxycontin, oxycontin, opium powder... Anything I could snort to stave off my opiate withdrawals. When you're addicted to opiates and you just quit, you honest to God feel like you're dying. I quickly reached a point where I wasn't taking them to get high... I just didn't want to feel sick. I wanted to feel normal. And only snorting $60 worth of a pill would make me feel "normal" for several hours. I spent over $8,000USD on opiate perscription painkillers off the street in under a year's time. And I got them cheap. I didn't sell, I snorted everything I had. Recently, I was perscribed Xanax for anxiety and since I was fond of the similar benzo, Valium, I have been snorting Xanax like it's my job. In fact, I sniffed a pill before I wrote this very story. I put myself in rehab in the past, but I didn't stay clean. I took drug counseling for myself, but I kept using. I went to NA meetings but just stopped all together. Pills ruined my whole life. My career, my family, my friends, the love of my life, my education, my self esteem, my personality, my interests and activities, everything. Pills took everything away from me because I let them. Please take heart to what I say. Snorting pills is a terrible path to go down. I self medicated to take away the pain, but it ended up causing the grief and struggle all along. Please be careful.
waiting4accident waiting4accident 22-25, F 8 Responses Oct 16, 2009

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My fiancé just died of fentonol overdose...Vicodin wasn't enough..it ruined his life and I never get to see him again. I lived through his addiction with him and it breaks my heart. Our son was only two weeks old when he ODd and life will never be the same. Drugs aren't cool, they kill and ruin lives.

thanks to suboxone m drug free five year now i was an addict for 25 years all i can say to former addict is try a suboxone its a life saver but caution make sure it day or so after u do your last pill good luck

I have had luck wuth suboxone as well but its only been because i bought them on the street. How do I get perscribed ?

I understand...I'm addicted to acetaminophen and aspirin and the medical methamphetamine...It sucks and nobody even realises because they're medicines seen everyday..I ever snorted acetaminophen once...And for my age that sucks....<br />
I hope you're doing better now, because it gives me hope....

I understand...I'm addicted to acetaminophen and aspirin and the medical methamphetamine...It sucks and nobody even realises because they're medicines seen everyday..I ever snorted acetaminophen once...And for my age that sucks....<br />
I hope you're doing better now, because it gives me hope....

i am also in this same place....i need help, im addicted, i have a child, i have a full time job and LOTS of bills....lately none have been paid. i keep making excuses for things ..i know im wrong but i cant stop....ive tried to quit many times but i keep falling back into the same place, i almost feel no hope....idk what im doing, i dont know what to do, soon i know im going to **** everything up....i pray i can change this soon....i really am jus at a loss for everything right now...i need someone to talk to....sry :(

Rehab. It may sound insane but its the only way. I lost my best friend to drugs. It's not fair.

Its really hard to walk away from the only comfort you can find.

we're in the same boat. I use everyday to self medicate too. it's mostly just add and adhd meds and k-pins but when i can get my hands on stuff like that i do. It does ruin your life and relationships with anyone and its hard to quit, gotta try but it's difficult.

I fell into the same pill addiction. As a pharmacist I had my own set of keys to the candy store. I was arrested twice and nearly sent to prison. I've been sober 9 years by the grace of God.<br />
Using is a terrible way of life. It's all about lies and deceit and pain. It seems fun at first, but slowly and subtly your real life is sucked away. It's no way to live.<br />
The good news is there's hope. There are ways to get clean and sober and start a real life. If I can do it...anybody can.