I So Wish I Would Have Been Born With a Female Body
That's what my own mother would say to those who saw me and who commented on my feminine traits. What is a boy to do when he hears that over and over.
I remember one time in the locker room at camp I was standing naked next to another boy whose mom owned the local women's health spa in town. He said "You have a great figure, better than most of the women who workout at my mom's spa, you've got a great rear end, feminine hips and a cute narrow waist, you just need to grow breasts" This is an absolutely true story and it was no pick up line as this little kid was shy and never made any kind of advances or any inappropriate behavior towards me. What was I supposed to do with that information, I thought I looked a little girlish when I looked in the mirror but here was external validation of what I saw. But I knew I was never going to grow breasts, I new I was never going to develop any more as a woman and this just crushed me. Other people saw my feminine qualities mentioned them to me and I knew I was stuck playing the role of a boy and now a man. I am a fair actor but I want to be the woman that is within.
