Back and Forth

I currently have something very important going on in my life.  There is a person I think about constantly that I cannot be with right now.  I am trying to be strong, but sometimes when I see something that reminds me of him or hear a certain song, I get very weepy.  I have to let it out.  I can't help it.  I don't like to cry, but I guess that's all a part of the process when you miss someone.  I want to feel better and smile all the time, but sometimes no matter what I do, does not help.  I know this is necessary right now, but I am having trouble being strong.  I have poured out my guts to him how I feel. and I believe he feels the same way.  That is good at least.  I am happy and sad at the same time.

chance1 chance1
46-50, F
3 Responses Mar 5, 2009

i feel ya. i miss my husband and he's been gone now sice sept 08 and gets back july 24 and i am counting down the days because i am not the same now without him.

You read my story and I hope it helped you some. This started 9 months ago for me. The first 6 months were the absolute worst as far as emotional upheaval for me. Some I shared with him and some I just worked my way through, not wanting to overburden someone who is telling me that they love me with all their heart and soul. This project he is working on has gone way longer than either one of us ever anticipated.... but the contract must be fulfilled. <br />
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We talked about this right from the first.<br />
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Rule #1 - no doubts. when my mind starts doubting, I open that last email and read it again, and know positively that he loves me!<br />
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This is not an easy course you and I have embarked on. Feel free to email me anytime, even if you just need a shoulder, someone who really does understand. :)

My heart knows it, my mind is the thing that hurts me the most