There's A Number Of ReasonsI suppose this is hard for me because it's frustrating to try and convey everything that feels wrong to me. Also I don't like infecting people with my problems. I don't like people worrying about me, I don't like people thinking they have to help me. I don't want pity or sympathy or empathy. If something is paining me, chances are I will hide it instead of trying to display it out for people to look through. I don't want to seem pathetic. I'm afraid that I am wrong and I will be taken away. That people will try to fix me.
I often feel hurt or dying inside but oftentimes, talking about it will only put us in a painful loop where nothing at all is solved and both parties leave feeling even more frustrated. i don't want to hurt anyone. I don't want anyone to feel even a fraction of what I do. It's far too painful. Too much responsibility. So I'll just shut up and tough it out.