I Cannot Get Over My Ex Husband
I am still in love with my ex husband but I can't talk about it to my friends & family. I started dating him in high school then married him when I turned 18. We were married 12 1/2 yrs & had two sons together. He was an alcoholic our whole marriage & at times when he was drunk he wouldn't treat me so good. When he was sober I couldn't ask for a better person. After 12 1/2 yrs of marriage I left & filed for divorce. We've been divorced 12 years now so why am I still in love with him? Call me stupid! I don't care. I can't talk about this to anyone I know personally so therefore I am not allowing myself to heal. He is a different person now but I am also married to a wonderful man now who doesn't deserve to be hurt. I want to move on. I want these feelings to stop. I want the night after night dreams to vanish! I am tired of waking in the middle of the night drenched in tears & the feeling of it all being so real!