Nothing to Offer!!!
some people that know me on here, know that the past 10 years or so havent been the greatest for me!!! to make a long story short, in the last 10 years i moved back to scotland after living in south africa 20 years, and spending most of the last 2 years of that, as unemployed!! then in the last nine years since i arrived in scotland, i have lost 2 grandparents to heart attacks, i lost my dad to cancer, have suffered depression and a gambling problem (my own stupid fault), and for the last 3 years, been living with my mom, as she has been depressed and stressed out after my father passed away!!! the problem is, i have never had a girlfriend or any type of relationship before in my life, cos my life has been too much going on in my life to concentrate on that!!! but now that i have managed to get through all that, its left me thinking "what do i have to offer?" i mean i just dont see anything there that i have to offer anyone!!! im shy, kinda quiet and cos of all thats happened, im still living at home at the age of 29 (sad i know) and i just dont know what to do with my life now!! i mean when i was younger, i had so many plans as to what i was going to do with my life, and i probably hoped that i would have been settled down by now as well, but it hasnt happened!! i mean what sort of girl in her right mind would want to go out with a guy like me!!! my life just seems to be going nowhere fast, and i dont know what to do!!!! every time i try to think about what i want to do with my life from now on, my mind just goes blank!!! could it really be true, have i really got nothing to offer?