The year of 2012 was a rough one, and I don't see this year being any better. If anything its getting worse with each passing day. Sometimes its a small change, a vague decrease in self worth and self preservation. Other days there's a dramatic, almost insane plunge on my wanting to be alive. The thing is, It's a lot harder to find and keep reasons to WANT to live than it is to lose them, and takes much longer to build up.
I lost my friends, my family aren't who I thought they were, I've lost all respect for my mom, my homelife is unbearable, my social life is continously in jeopardy and I am ALWAYS in some kind of trouble at school. I'm overwhelmed with painful feelings and there's been too many changes in my life and I've had no time to prepare or adapt. More often than not I want to take my own life.
EmmyL EmmyL
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 7, 2013

Don't do it. Get a therapist, and whatever you have to do to treat your depression,real quick.