End It All

I hate that I was born. I wish I could've just stayed where I was before being born into this sh!t hole we call earth. I don't trust people; I don't like many people, so I don't see a point to me continuing to live because I know I don't have a purpose on earth.
If I don't trust I'm not getting into a relationship and I hate kids besides, I don't believe in love anyway.
I'm not going to help fill this sh-t hole with an annoying, screaming, idiotic, ignorant, so called person who is only going to suffer until they meet their demise.
I know it's not normal to think this way, but I can't get "help" because my parents don't believe in therapy and I know they won't understand me in the least bit. I always fake being happy and cry at night to release my pint up anguish,rage, and whatever other emotions I've been holding in.
In short life will always give you sh!t and it's always going to suck.
I'd rather have a permanent solution to keep from going through repeated temporary problems.
I wouldn't have to deal anymore.
Just needed to get that off my chest.
Ps. Life is as pointless as bombing for peace.
Mybodyisacage Mybodyisacage
18-21, F
1 Response Jan 16, 2013

Man, that's a lot to take in. Aren't there some things in life you enjoy? You mention wanting a
permanent solution for "temporary" problems, if they're temporary can't you ride them out?
You never know what tomorrow may bring, (Yeah, maybe just more sh!t, but maybe some
things that are good), and if you choose a permanent "solution", you never will. I wish you
the best of luck, and I sincerely hope you feel better soon. SeanPat

Yeah, but honestly it's not worth living for if one day it's going to be gone. I don't feel that going through repeated temporary problems over and over again. I just have a permanent solution and be done. No I won't and I don't like the fact that I can't control what's next and since all I'm getting is sh!t I can expect to get it.
Thanks that means a lot.