I Feel Lost Most Of My Life!

I am new to this sight! "Boy" am I ever "Lost"..... I have nobody to talk too,to confide in or share my problems with. I have noone to cheer me up when I am down. I have nobody to make me happy or even to smile. I have noone to give me a helping hand when I  am struggling in "Life" I have nobody too "Love" me back! I feel so alone in this world. I am so alone that this life Im living doesent seem any different than being alone 6 feet under! Well that is how I feel. I just want too be Happy as Im writting this the tears are rolling down my face. Please let me know of any out puts anyone may have! Once again Im sorry for venting!....Anto815
Anto815 Anto815
46-50, F
5 Responses Jul 20, 2010

Thankyou Girl Capital, Im sorry it's taken so long in getting back but thanks for taking the time out in reading my story. Thankyou also for your comment it really means so much. I just needed to vent and im glad I have a place to just that. Thanks again Have a good day

TO ALL MY FRIENDS...THANKYOU ALL FOR ALL THE KIND WORDS..THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO ME MORE THAN YOU WILL EVER KNOW..THANKYOU ALL FOR READING MY STORY. I REALLY WOULD LOVE TO BE ALL YOUR RIENDS..PLEASE GIVE ME A DAY OR TWO TO DO IT. I WOULD LOVE TO CHA WITH EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU....I'M SORRY IT HAS TAKEN SO LONG TO REPLY BUT I SHARE MY LAPTOP WITH MY 17 YEAR OLD DAUGHTER....THANKS AGAIN

I feel the same--LONELY--I have lost faith in people. Seems like its safer to be alone than to be hurt but it SUCKS!! I dont want to die although I too have felt the same about feeling like id be better off--BUT I dont want to die--I know there is an afterlife. I dont want ot go to hell-I just want o be happy!!--I dont believe that all people who commit suicide go to hell--only God knows there heart and there is a window of oppotunity, I think for God to deal w/ that persons heart (a chance to repent) enen if the DR.S say the person is braindead--God can talk to them but I do know that one of the ten commandments-THOU SHAL NOT KILL also applies to one taking there own life--thats what I meant when I said I dont want ot go to hell. Now saying all that Its hard to give advise on this. I know how bad you are hurting but dont feel that you would be better off dead. Sometimes I feel ashamed because I know that life is a gift and to be enjoyed. Sometimes I find it relaxing to go for walks in a cemetary to clear my mind and help w/ depression because I think,"Well at least Im not dead"--kinda like learning to appreciate life. I try to make myself believe that I dont need anyone but I do. I meet people like yourself and I know how I feel and realize that people shouldn't feel this way--being lonely--people like us have that one thing in common---lonliness-hense-thats enough, icebreaker to become friends--if people would just learn to reach out--there would be less lonely people--So I am reaching out to you--would you be my new friend?

At your age ANTO815 be the EP advisor to people, especially the young people. That keep me busy each day, even though I work everyday.

I'm sorry to hear you feel so lost, although i do have a wonderful partner i still feel like that too. I don't like talking about it to friends out fear that they would start to avoid me, which is why i really want to meet people who have simular experiences.