I Sometimes Feel That No Matter What I Do, It Is Wrong
I probably only feel this way because this is all I've ever known. Pretty much anytime I make a decision or do something I end up getting reprimanded and told how wrong I am, and what a disappointment I've become. Then told how immature I am, and then told how I SHOULD have done it, or how I SHOULD have made my decision.... to me, that's not ME living my life... that's someone else living my life.
Sure, they're older. Sure, they've seen other people make the same mistakes, or even made them themselves. But if I don't get a chance to make my own decisions then how will I know I've made the right ones for me? I'm not someone else... I'm not them. I'm me.
Unfortunately, to everyone else... they're always right, I'm always wrong.... truly. (Not everyone, but to the people whose opinions REALLY matter to me. e.g. My parents, siblings, grandparents, pastor, etc) People I should I be able to look up to and learn from. But I haven't even gotten the opportunity to learn.
You can say "The stove is hot, don't touch it." as many times as you want. But a child won't understand what THE STOVE IS HOT means until they touch the stove.
Sure, they're older. Sure, they've seen other people make the same mistakes, or even made them themselves. But if I don't get a chance to make my own decisions then how will I know I've made the right ones for me? I'm not someone else... I'm not them. I'm me.
Unfortunately, to everyone else... they're always right, I'm always wrong.... truly. (Not everyone, but to the people whose opinions REALLY matter to me. e.g. My parents, siblings, grandparents, pastor, etc) People I should I be able to look up to and learn from. But I haven't even gotten the opportunity to learn.
You can say "The stove is hot, don't touch it." as many times as you want. But a child won't understand what THE STOVE IS HOT means until they touch the stove.
By:
angeldancer
Age:
22-25
,
Female
